Tacos and Heartbeats

August 29, 2011...over dinner at Taco Bell.

 

Daddy: "Kids your mommy has something she wants to tell you."

Mommy: "Remember when I had to go to the doctor last week and they had to take my blood and check me out?"

Kids: "Uh huh." 

Mommy: "Well guess what they found out?" 

Kids: (silence) (slightly worried looks) What?

Mommy: "Well they found a little heart beating in my belly AND they found it was a BABY!" You both are going to be a BIG brother and a BIG sister!" 

Christian: (eyes wide open) "Oooh, you're having a baby! I hope it's a brother so I can play Army with him!" 

Josephine:  (Jovial) "If it's a brother, I guess I will just play by myself...ooh and I am going to feed the baby!" 

Mommy: "Josephine, what were you thinking about when we told you, you looked worried? You had a funny look on your face."

Josephine: "Huh! I almost dropped my taco!" (because she was so surprised)

... and another heart quietly beats in the Musso family!

We were certain that our childbearing days were over and I can't say we are surprised when we were never against the possibility of having more. However, we found contentment with our two after having grieved the loss of our C.J. three years ago. We patiently wait each month for growth, trusting that no matter what comes, that God will provide whatever needs we have...because He always has. Last go around, we swore we would wait until we were at least 5 months along...I know extreme. We worried how it would traumatize our kids if we were to miscarry again but it is important to us that our kids learn to deal with the reality of death and life in a healthy way. I can't imagine them not being a part of this pregnancy or the loss of it. They know about their baby brother or sister C.J. and even if the worst were to happen, we would grieve together and in that grow stronger as a family. 

Today, we are rejoicing for the life that we have as a family of 4...plus a small raspberry (that's the size baby Musso is about now). Last night at prayer time these prayers were lifted up to heaven:

Josephine: "Dear God, help the baby to be strong and to grow to be healthy. Amen"

Christian: "Dear God, help my mommy to not have too much pain when the baby comes and help her to be strong." 

So...our family grows and we appreciate your prayers. Some of you follow us as we continue in ministry here in the inner city. I haven't quite established a fancy news letter but would if the interest is there...so let me know. 

For You formed my inward parts; You wove me in my mother's womb. Psalm 139:13

Yaay! We're gonna have a baby!!!